So ABC news had this special concerning the fact that 42% of women have never been married. I wasn't really worried or anything because my main concern right now is passing the 11th grade. So I was basically nonchalantly watching it until Steve Harvey's bald headed behind makes this statement:
"Black women don't have to settle but they should compromise."
As a pretty decent intelligent girl with pretty good morals I expect certain things from a guy. Not much: the ability to read, taller than I am, college educated/or has a life plan that's reasonable, nice, believes in god...
So how do we know if we're asking too much? If we expect something that we have not yet been able to find are we overestimating our self worth? And what's the difference between compromise and settling in this particular situation? Just something to boggle the mind. like i said I don't want a ring on it right now...
Now back to my life:
Shawty brand new, fresh out the box
Gah The new year begins bring the ritualistic resolution with it. In the past Ive set pretty good goals and usually met about half of them. This year I noticed that cash ruled everything around me. When I was mad or unhappy I would thing to myself when i get my check I'll buy this and that when in reality the source of my happiness was something that could never be bought. Even now that I'm unemployed and broke when I'm mad or having a bad day I just think that if I had a job and could buy myself nice things I'd feel better. So next year I'm gonna try to understand that money isn't everything. Uh the friends situation is really easy. Sometimes I just put to much faith in the wrong people. I really want to meet to people and eventually become friends with them but it always seem that the
new people I meet flake on me one way or another. It's not like I'm not content with the friends I have it's just I would like to step out of the box a little. School! I can't afford to slack off anymore. My goal is to complete my junior year of HS with all A's WITHOUT the weighted credit. Everything this year seems pretty reasonable.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Friday, December 25, 2009
:} what it do shawty? lol
So I have this friend. This spring he expressed to me that he was gay and why I found it pretty damn hard to believe, I did come to terms with it. And then here comes the boyfriend scenario: After months of bad decisions, fights, and jealousy, he finally gets a man! and im like super happy for him and everything.
Now comes the fiery pits of hell: every time I turned around it was SOMETHING going on. Either his boyfriend hated one of his friends, complained they weren't spending enough time, constantly whining about his lack of self worth, etc.
And then I had an epiphany: If yall are truly in love and meant to be, Why in the hell are you jumping through hoops and damn near dying to be together?
Something wasn't right.
True love isn't effortless and there will be plenty of struggle but being in a relationship shouldn't bring you more pain than pleasure. I cant stand for people to sit there and complain or lay out all the negative aspects of their relationships when it's very obvious that it just aint working! God wants us all to be happy and while I do believe he won't hand us everything we desire he won't make us jump through the fiery pits of hell to find happiness either.
ever heard of what god has for me it is for me?
if you are in a relationship and you find yourself fighting like hell to maintain happiness you aren't "fighting for love" or "proving he/she is the one"
YOUR FITTING A SQUARE INTO A SPACE MEANT FOR A CIRCLE!.
But i guess this is where knowing your self worth and value comes in.
NOW BACK TO MY LIFE:
Today was/is Christmas(idk what time it is).
Lets just say it was uh bitter sweet? This year I cooked basically the whole Christmas dinner and I had no problems with it. But what I didn have a problem with is my grandmother harassing me and getting on my nerves all day. It's really getting to the point where I cant stand her old behind. its funny too because she used to be my favorite family member. All i know is people better get right because they only have (looks at watch) a little less than two years left to be graced in my presence? hmph. I'm looking forward to the new year and the many changes that'll come along with it. I think the biggest thing I struggled with this year was friends. I'm just a bad decision maker when it comes to that. Still looking for that bestie that know is out there somewhere. Dating: uh i don't forsee it being an issue in 2010. I just dont have the time or energy to put into a relationship and I don't slack on anything I do so it's best to leave it alone if I know i can't fully commit. The crush i better fade away or someone will have some hell to pay! lmao
I think that's it?
xoxo Tasia
So I have this friend. This spring he expressed to me that he was gay and why I found it pretty damn hard to believe, I did come to terms with it. And then here comes the boyfriend scenario: After months of bad decisions, fights, and jealousy, he finally gets a man! and im like super happy for him and everything.
Now comes the fiery pits of hell: every time I turned around it was SOMETHING going on. Either his boyfriend hated one of his friends, complained they weren't spending enough time, constantly whining about his lack of self worth, etc.
And then I had an epiphany: If yall are truly in love and meant to be, Why in the hell are you jumping through hoops and damn near dying to be together?
Something wasn't right.
True love isn't effortless and there will be plenty of struggle but being in a relationship shouldn't bring you more pain than pleasure. I cant stand for people to sit there and complain or lay out all the negative aspects of their relationships when it's very obvious that it just aint working! God wants us all to be happy and while I do believe he won't hand us everything we desire he won't make us jump through the fiery pits of hell to find happiness either.
ever heard of what god has for me it is for me?
if you are in a relationship and you find yourself fighting like hell to maintain happiness you aren't "fighting for love" or "proving he/she is the one"
YOUR FITTING A SQUARE INTO A SPACE MEANT FOR A CIRCLE!.
But i guess this is where knowing your self worth and value comes in.
NOW BACK TO MY LIFE:
Today was/is Christmas(idk what time it is).
Lets just say it was uh bitter sweet? This year I cooked basically the whole Christmas dinner and I had no problems with it. But what I didn have a problem with is my grandmother harassing me and getting on my nerves all day. It's really getting to the point where I cant stand her old behind. its funny too because she used to be my favorite family member. All i know is people better get right because they only have (looks at watch) a little less than two years left to be graced in my presence? hmph. I'm looking forward to the new year and the many changes that'll come along with it. I think the biggest thing I struggled with this year was friends. I'm just a bad decision maker when it comes to that. Still looking for that bestie that know is out there somewhere. Dating: uh i don't forsee it being an issue in 2010. I just dont have the time or energy to put into a relationship and I don't slack on anything I do so it's best to leave it alone if I know i can't fully commit. The crush i better fade away or someone will have some hell to pay! lmao
I think that's it?
xoxo Tasia
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
STARTING ANEWWWWWWWWW!
So i had another blog under this account and it was filled with lame immature depressing things. SO to mark the beginning of 2010 I thought I would start alllllllllll over and move in a absolutely positive direction. Feel free to join me on this journey of self discovery |: CHEEZAY!
<3 Tasia
<3 Tasia
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